When I ask myself how my life would be different if I believed I was already enough, I think about that inner peace I have been seeking. I would be peaceful. I would be able to relax. I would laugh more and play more. I would scrap my to-do lists on gorgeous fall days (or spring days or summer days or winter days) and I would sit in the sun, watching the birds while eating a tangerine, with no agenda. I would enjoy what I am doing without the guilty thought that I should be doing something else. I would live in the moment more and just be. In this way I could create a new groove in my brain, and maybe the old one would start to get shallower. There is no reason I cannot do that now. Today. This moment.