Until I was able to see that changing the focus was little more than playing Whack A Mole with where my compulsions would appear, there was no relief at all. This is one hard road, because our society feeds what sells, what sells is implied perfection, the if-only I were perfect, I would have love-money-popularity-happiness blah blah blah. No you won’t. I was just as much a pressured asshole when I was slim and young as I was overweight. It. Is. All. A. Lie. Addiction is addiction whether it’s to exercise or to meditation. We are simply seeking escape from the cauldron within. Until we swim in the cauldron, it continues to bubble. That’s a lifelong journey into the self. No easy answer, but the results are one hell of a lot better.