Thanks so much Tracy.
Truth is that while I did many kinds of work that I loved at the time, far too much of it was stuff I did to please others, to live up to a different set of expectations, pay the bills. Part of the reason I write what I do is that so many of us don’t ever ask about or discover our why. I love what you say here about “hard on the ear.” The dissonance is precisely what you- the why doesn’t belong to the deep heart.
And yes, nice friends. Yesterday right after lunch I was doing a riding class on a half-Arab named Bo who is famous for being a snit. I got there early, spend time in the corral just working on his body and petting him, gave him a bunch of apple biscuits. Not suprisingly he gave me a superb ride. When we take the time to teach our horses (and all other creatures) that we’re not ONLY demanding that they work, but that we appreciate their company, they give back the same way our friends do.