Sharon, the journey is unique to all of us, but for me it is most clearly a sugar addiction. Obesity and fat are considered by the vast majority the result of weakness and laziness. Not at all, and most certainly not with everyone. That assumption carries with it the full weight of extreme judgment and with it all the attendant guilt.
The Secret Life of Fat by Dr. Sylvia Tara might offer you some much-needed perspective and humor. It might also give you some tools that you don’t have right now, if nothing else, a way to see who you are and where you are in the battle of the bulge. I fought and won that battle but it took me a very long time. My guess is that had I had this book sooner it might have been a lot more fun.