It is not mine to judge. This I will say, MK, had you not done what you did, your sons may not have made it. The truth, the way I see it, is that you did everything you had to do. If you hadn't, you wouldn't be able to have this voice NOW. It's hard. Of course it is. But I wonder, do you really need to apologize to them- or build on the incredibly difficult prices you paid for your perspectives? I can't answer that, any more than I could say I might have been better off had I not been raped. Those things made me who I am. Gave me THIS voice. I love your voice. It is a voice born of pain, of sacrifice. That is part of its power. Your sons have every reason to be exceedingly proud of their Ma.