Christina, this is most kind and of course hard to read. The truth is that we all gaze with somewhat jealous eyes at the lives of others and wonder what differenct choices might have offered us had we but gone that way. I have one dear friend who married, had two kids, and they remain successful, and she has a warm body into which to curl up at night. I’ve never had that. Do I wish? Damned right I do, but that wasn’t, isn’t my path. So I have to accept that the series of choices which have led me where I am today have made me who I am, with the advantages and disadvantages of same. Where we have chosen to count on others who let us down as you refer to, my god, if I had a dollar for every dick who let me, down, I sure as hell would be in different circumstances. In fact, I’d have a great deal more money in my bank account, most of which I gave to said men. So all those choices have results. For my part, I’ve tried hard, and not always successfully, to concentrate on the beauty of my choices, rather than what I don’t have. That way lies madness, anger, loss, and bitterness. I love your honesty. We all compare, for it is human, and inevitable. I believe utlimately it is up to us to find grace and sacredness in the choices that we did make, in that we made them in the secure knowledge that in that moment, it was in every way the right thing for us, our path, and those lives we touched. Thank you for your heartfelt comments.